Raving lunatic...

You... that were my life, my fulfilled dream... You waited until I was turned around, you waited until I really needed you, until I was down, until I was in my worst moment...

You stole my laugh, my soul and my faith. You stole them and throw them away... And even so, you weren't happy! So you decided to break my heart, destroy my dreams and laugh about me...

How do you expect me to love someone? How do you pretend me to trust in anyone? How do you think I am feeling about love, about live? I can´t love right now! I can´t love anyone but me and most of the times, not even that... I feel so alone but I reject anyone, I feel so sad but I can´t feel any fun... Masks do so much... Thaks I am not a bad liar...

I feel tears running down my face every single night, anxiety taking over me, madness clouding my senses and depression pulling me down... I could sign my contract to hell.

How can you abandon the person you love? How can´t you think about it? How can you so easily escape from the bad moments? I would never done it, better saying... I never did it! I was there, even when you didn´t want me to be...

I don´t deserve what I got, what you gave to me... I will never understand why God lets that happen... Maybe is just my fake impression of love, but I will never understand the selfish way you love... And if that is love, I will never love anymore...