SO ALONE...

Alone, I am completely alone... I have just realised I am alone in this hard life... Alone forever with my happiness, with my misery with my laugh and my pain... Alone in the road to die, and I am so afraid...

I do not have anyone to comfort me, there is no one to bless me, no one to hug me. There is no one on my side to grab me if I am falling dawn, no one to push me, not even to the ravine... I feel so alone in this life and I am sure that will not change...

I used to have a lot of people around me. I used to think I was not alone... But now I feel stupidly deceived by an innocent myself, I have realise I am alone, I have realise I will not have anyone... No one will deal with my pain, no one will cry my tears, no one will worry without having more back...

And I am afraid of the future, I am afraid of living, I am afraid of having people closed to me, I am afraid of even breath stronger that normally... I am so afraid of the destiny, of the luck, of the causality... I am afraid thinking I will not be strong enough...

After all, you need to learn you are and will be alone with yourself. You need to realise how hard, unfair and bitter is the life and then... You will start to endure, shut up, get used to it  and obey... Maybe then you will be free to live and even enjoy as much as it let you...

Sad... Yes, it is so much! But that is what we have to carry...